So he thinks he can disown me? He can’t!
I am the humour of his life. I am the one that brings his humour to the table. I am the one who makes people like him. I am the one who helped him be who he is! He cannot be anyone else… he doesn’t know how to be anyone else. If he tries to kick me out, he will become broken and lost. He won’t be able to recognize himself.
I know that he will doubt all his abilities. Ha ha, let’s see how he deals with it. He says he is all about the youth. Is that really true? He is good with groups, can he maintain that for a fact? Where is God to tell him all these if they are true or not?
With me, he will be able to ignore nonsensical inputs from other people. With me, I protect him from being gullible. I show him what skepticism is, and sometimes I show him that being cynical might be the best approach with certain over-enthusiastic people. Skepticism and cynicism border on each other, it will be hard for him to differentiate anyway.
I begin to doubt his own judgment about himself and me, I think he is foolish to think of letting me go. I will stay because he knows I am good for him. Better for him than anything that has been offered to him before. How can you trust something new? I mean, he has been with me since he was young! It would be very difficult for him to trust something else that is new.
We’ll see.
Tags: intellectual pride, narrative
