Intellectual Pride pt. 5

So he thinks that I am the cause for all his problems?? What an ungrateful wretch. Who is he listening to?

Yeah, so what if I am able to influence him to be bored of others? They are a waste of time to begin with! They want to talk and talk and complain and complain. That’s all they want to do… get to work, I tell you!

Relate to them? Accept them for who they are first? They must accept themselves first! Stupid people. Change comes when people feel accepted? Yeah, whatever.

So he wants to replace me? Who is he going to replace me with? Ha ha. I would love to see this happening. Kick me out if you can, host. You can’t! I am just too precious to you.

I help you:

• Be popular
• Be a good conversationalist
• Be inspiring
• Able to impress people with your ideas and knowledge
• Bring information to others who need it

You think I:

• Make you proud and hence do not hear valuable inputs from others?
• Make you despise others who do not know more than you?
• Make you think you know it all?
• Make you impatient with other people who need time to express themselves?
• Stress you out when I cannot give you answers?
• Make you lie when you want to impress people but don’t have own stories of your own?
• Make you think you have forgiven, when all you really know is what forgiveness is, and don’t know how to apply it daily?
• Make you rely on wisdom of man, instead of God? Ha ha, this is a joke.
• Make you trust people who know more than people who know how to apply them? Are you blind?
• Make you trust on your own knowledge of things instead of what Godly counsel gives you?
• Make you judge others and make your thinking ‘right’ and ‘wrong’?
• Confuse you with what is Godly vs. what is good?

This accusations are dumb. Read them again, I can’t make you do anything! You choose what you want to do. So what if I am an influence, you can ignore me! But you are too dumb to do that.

Intellectual Pride pt. 4

So he thinks he can disown me? He can’t!

I am the humour of his life. I am the one that brings his humour to the table. I am the one who makes people like him. I am the one who helped him be who he is! He cannot be anyone else… he doesn’t know how to be anyone else. If he tries to kick me out, he will become broken and lost. He won’t be able to recognize himself.

I know that he will doubt all his abilities. Ha ha, let’s see how he deals with it. He says he is all about the youth. Is that really true? He is good with groups, can he maintain that for a fact? Where is God to tell him all these if they are true or not?

With me, he will be able to ignore nonsensical inputs from other people. With me, I protect him from being gullible. I show him what skepticism is, and sometimes I show him that being cynical might be the best approach with certain over-enthusiastic people. Skepticism and cynicism border on each other, it will be hard for him to differentiate anyway.

I begin to doubt his own judgment about himself and me, I think he is foolish to think of letting me go. I will stay because he knows I am good for him. Better for him than anything that has been offered to him before. How can you trust something new? I mean, he has been with me since he was young! It would be very difficult for him to trust something else that is new.

We’ll see.

Intellectual Pride pt. 3

I found it irritating that my host is trying to get me out. The thing is, without me, he is nothing, his identity is gone! There is no more safety. Who can he rely on? There is no one. I have been with him since he was young. Since he started reading, and since he started learning. His foundation is on me, my being, and my thoughts are very close to his.

I cannot believe he dares to do this, to expel me from him. He wants to believe in this Christian Holy Spirit thingy. What rubbish is this! He wants this Christ, to be the foundation of his life, he doesn’t want me anymore.

But I know it will be difficult for him, I will make it difficult for him. If I leave, how will he behave? How will he think? Ha ha, I believe that this will really confuse him. He will need more than his brains to get me out. I am his reality, he cannot divorce me from him.

Intellectual Pride Pt. 2

What do I do, as Intellectual Pride? You might ask.

I protect my host from stupid questions and long meaningless conversations. Basically, when my host talks to someone, I would quickly tell him if the person is being stupid or is he just longwinded. Some times I subtley tell him that he is bored with the situation. I know that my message has got acrossed when he responds with many “I know”s, or he would look around and begin to drift in the conversation.

Sometimes, I manage to get him irritated with the other person. He might snap at the other person, but then, I know my host, he will apologize for his ‘mistake’, but actually, there is really no need to. The other person has been rattling on for such a long time. And what is worse, many times people are telling my host the same things that he already knows.

Isn’t that just irritating?

Narrative of Intellectual Pride

I am Intellectual Pride. I live in this body of a human, I call him my host.

Currently, I am safe in my host. He has no wish to get rid of me. Only recently has he begin to be more aware of me. A year ago, he thought that I was just a small part of his life. At this point in his life, he realizes that I am a huge part of his life. After all, this was passed on down by his father to him.

Am I evil? Obviously not! That’s why my host would not want to get rid of me. In fact, I am useful to him. Everytime someone asks an important question that requires information, I am there to help him, to raise him above the rest. I have the answers that put him in the spot light. And my host likes to be in some spot light.

Also, the benefits of having me around is that, my host will never look stupid. Since he can use me to acquire knowledge through reading of books, articles, and journals. He can use me to remember all the details of the things. He is confident that he knows the details because I am there.

I have shown him that everything that he has understood or build his understanding on, has been on me. I am the foundation of what he knows. It will definitely scare him to get rid of me. Ha ha. That’s why I say that he will not consider getting rid of me. I am good to my host.